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1 April

Dear A,

Dude, 
I'm really really really am sorry
For what had happened
Aku tak tahu pun berita tu quite private and confidential, for you
Kalau aku tahu, aku tak cakap dekat orang lain
Sehingga menyebabkannnya tersebar
Dengan pantasnya. 
-,-


Lagi mengharukan aku lagi, kau beritahu aku sorang je
Kawan baik kau sendiri pun kau tak cerita pasal tu
And I was like 
Whattaaaaaaa?! You told about it just only at me?  
Only me?!


Then I realized, how important I am in your life
For that moment.
But it's no longer. 
Not anymore for now -.-







*sigh*



Now, your faith in me is getting less
Hubungan kita pun dah semakin hambar
Kau pun dah mula berkira kira nak kongsi masalah dengan aku
Which I bet, for you,  it sounds like
Nak cerita ke taknak? 
Nak ke taknak? 
Nak ke tak? 
Emm okaylah,  
taknak cerita!

Deym you Qila!
You just broke his heart.


Dear You,
Now the lesson's learned
Yes, I do regret how I could let myself  let others know about it
I regretted for what I have done.
Forever and always I do regret about it.
Sorry man.
:(

I think you cooler than me

During my examination weeks, he gave supports and keep wishing me. 

Every single day. 

 

Like, if I'm afraid and believe that I can't do well in my paper he would just said

"InsyaAllah, baca doa & selawat. All the best"

And after my first paper (it really really sucks okay. Only for me. I bet -.-'), I told him that the paper so sucks *sila alih bahasa* and I hate it as the time given was so short ya know. He just said typed

"Try lagi utk paper lain, good luck"

And if I'm so depressed when revising, he texted

"Rebus nota bubuh kicap, belerang, secubit garam & cuka!"

HAHAHA 

You know what will be happened? The examination would be paused for a moment. There will be a funeral  -.-'

And the next day he will ask what's the next paper, and texted

"All the best"

The next day, he texted

"Try your best"

The next day

"Good luck"

Then, for the Economics paper *he studies this subject too ;)*, he texted

"Try your best, ingat supply & demand dah boleh goreng"

PERGHHHHH ! :O 

goreng bagai -.-' 

Then I told him it's not that easy man, we have to cover many other tough things for this subject. And then he said

"Fuh ! Dahsyat tu! faham beza monetary & fiscal policy. Int trade hafal trade aggr spt fta, eu, afta, nafta"

Man, that's more than enough we have learned -.-'

 

And not to be forgotten, he wished my birthday

Happy b'day, god bless u

Simple but still nice and sweet :)

Dude, I <3 you 

You're such a SUPERcool Dad on Earth :')

Tolong saya kawan :')

Sometimes, aku rasa aku selalu mempositifkan mindset orang lain. Contoh: 

" Hey, kau janganlah la prasangka dia, aku kenal dia, dia okay je lah"

"Weh, jangan stereotype pasal dia, aku kelas (cth) ngan dia, dia okay je"

"Eh, jangan fikir negatif pasal dia lah, mungkin dia buat macam tu bersebab"

Janganlahhhh~~ "

(nada merayu dan sangat soft ibarat softner)

But can someone do the same to me ?

I'm a homo-sapiens too

tak lari dari kekhilafan

*sigh* 

notakukukaki: pls help me :'(

mood swing

Aku bukan ehem ehem yang tulah ! ;(

Aku cuma tiada mood je. Semua serba tak kena je malam raya ini :(

Betul lah kata kata yang pernah aku dengar, kalau kita over happy sangat, mesti nanti kita sedih. It happens to me rite now. 

Petang tadi aku pergi TESCO dengan Along & Alang, beli keperluan esok (raya). Aku beli keperluan cupcakes juga. Ye. Saya berniat nak buat cupcakes sejak sepurnama yang lalu *sila gelak sinis. Lepas itu, pergi ambil Kakak di KTM Ipoh & Uda di rumah sewanya. Dalam kereta, kami adik beradik pom pang pom pang happy gile vavi, karok semua lagu, gelak2 bagai. 

Then time Maghrib & Isya' pun aku main2 ngan abg2 aku. I mean bukan main2 tak khuyuk tu, ni gurau2 around start/ habis solat.

Selepas Isya', siap2 mandi, pergi buat projek mega aku tuh. Dah semangat bagai, tapi aku takut tak jadi kek cawan nye, takde sape nak makan :(

Tup2, acuan nak letak bekas kek cawan takde. So, self esteem dah turun -.-

Time buat, cam tak best. Guna case muffin yang kecil tu. Alah, kecil sebesar mulut korang kalau dimuncungkan tu (9/10 akan muncungkan mulut bila baca ayat ini :p) So, tak layak digelar cupcake dah. Jadi muffin pula. Malah, muffin yang kecil. Grrr..!

So, aku buat sikit je, sebab ada isu dengan muffin itu. Ya, bukan isu dengan orang sekeliling, tapi MUFFIN KECIL itu. Huh! Buat sikit 2 round, blah, online. Babai dapur.

Esok pagi lah sambung buat icing dia. Tak cukup bahan, tak suka buat. Tak semangat.

So, hopefully esok, ada kedai Cina yang tak raya, buka. Nak beli barang kasi lengkap punya. Btw, cupcake muffin saya rasa tak sesedap yang saya harapkan. Sekian. Maklumlah, 1st trying :(

kukukaki: doakan 2nd try lebih baik ye kawan kawan :') Selamat Hari Raya Korban :)

Geramji

Huh?! What's that? Is it kind of monster in the Ultraman? Is it the brother of gergaji? Is it the next sequel for Saw movie? Izeet? Izeet? 
no no no no~

Only the persons who ever joined PLKN before know that word. Eh, NO again! Only person who focused in the class (like me) knows that instead of the person who's making some noises while their eyes closed tightly, snored =.=

Yaa.I'm so geramji, especially this month. Many bad things happened to me and to some of my friends. 
Zaki with his result papers; poor him :'( 
Ayep with his final exam results which still riddling himself & the PTPTN thingy; poor him too :'(

Me? 

More and more poor :'''(

After got the suck-est results ever, the kolej thingy really really make me sick.  :''( 
And now, the so-killing-paper-after-SPM-paper came to me. Serious baby are you down down down down downnnn. Duhhhh. *slap forehead

Let's talk about the first paper; reading. I wondered who's the person responsible for making those longest & hard-to-understand texts? DEYM! It made my eyes rolled and rolled like bowling ball, the forehead turns to letter W. Serious! You should see how my face, the W letter on that time. I wish so. I got no time to check my answers :(
Shitto. 
Move on to the second paper; writing. The topic is not so hard pun, if we know how to mencarut-on-that-kertas like I did (Y). Stuck. Ran out of words. Eh, what's the word for mentua, menantu eh? x( Btw, the quest 2 was about the arranged marriage :p If I'm a married person, it would be easier for me kan? Luckily, I'm not -,- Then, I moved on back to the quest 1. While writing the 2nd paragraph (must have 5 paragraphs), the speaker said you have 10 minutes left. Whattthaquaaaa?!!!! :O Seriously, I mencarut-ed to end-the-kemarau on that shit sheet. Grrr..! 
Then, the last paper; listening. We have to listen carefully what the audio speaker said, and jot down the information while/after she read all the texts. The 1st audio is about the turtle-extinct-turtles laying eggs-overnite-chalet. HJKTFG!! I can't get what she said. Didn't make sense. I put my own words/sentence, not what she said. Thumbs up for me! ;) The second audio is about national-art-exhibitions-blablabla. Phewww for me, I can make it, even I'm not sure the answers -.- The third audio is about ------------------------------------------(ask Amal)----------------------------------------- healthy lifestyle-young-obese, followed by about stay up late-less sleep-blablabla (sumpah aku letak ayat jawapan sendiri part ni), followed by the I-forgot-already.

-End-

Oppss!! I just made some craps!

Zaki & Ayep, we are in the same Indah water's plant ;(

together we pray the BEST results for us :)

nail-foot: Geramji is geram jiwa (Y)

surat menikus tak rasmi dari Tanah Melayu ke Tanah Soviet

 Ahmad Zaki Anwar Shamsul Bahri

I'm sooooooo afraid, nervous man

Can you replace me for my MUET thingy, tomorrow?

I'll sponsor the ulang-alik tickets 

 then I'll treat you at Secret Recipe somewhere :)

 

Puh leeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzz

I'm begging you

nail-foot: :'(

:''( 

I mean :'''(

relief

While waiting for  the last episode of Chinta, I watched Indonesian drama series at TV9. If I'm not mistaken, the title of the drama is Cinta & Anugerah. I'm not sure. Do correct me if I wrong.

One sentence spoke out by the main character, made me think, think & think.

Allah will not giving us what we asked for,

but He will giving us what we need.

Allah tak akan berikan apa yang kita minta,

tetapi memberi apa yang kita perlukan- ayat bulat2 pelakon

 (translate tak nak kalah :p)

Yes. Have different meaning here. From my opinion (cewah!), Allah will not giving us what we asked for, that we pray for everyday. But He will giving us something that what we need only. Means here, let's take an example, someone always asked from God that he wants to success in his studies, exams, blablabla (good things), but when he got the exam results, he failed or maybe didn't get what he asked for before this. 

Everything happens for a reason right?

So, God did this (fate) because He wants His servants always remember Him, pray. He also wants us to work more harder for the next time to get the best results (why I'm using us instead of him now?) -.-'

You got what I tryna say? I mean type.

What I mean here, the meaning of the sentence is like every cloud have its silver lining. Perhaps.

Because I do feel (terasa, kena batang hidung) with the dialog.

Do think & understand the meaning deeply, guys.

nail-foot: If you didn't get the meaning, do tell me. Btw, Zaki, how to contact you man? -,-'

REGRET

I AM A TROUBLEMAKER FOR ME, MYSELF -.-''

Yesterday, I called Mawar, my hostel in UiTM. I wanna get the confirmation about my place for the next sem. And the kakak/makcik who answered my call told that I will not get my room for a week. Yeah, so sad ya know. My bad. 

Like Alia said, I'm a sloppy person =.=

I was misunderstood about the registration for the kolej a month ago. Ahhhh, so lazy to be written here what the problem is. But the conclusion is, it's all my fault. I'm so regret for what had happened.

Poor you Qila.

Till now, I've got TWO probs already


Kolej thingy & the Final exam results


coz both need me to tell my Dad.
means, I have to face the 'Death' too -.-

Stop troubling yourself, Qila

O Lord, please gimme a strength to tell those things to my Abi 

And Bud, do pray for me please, pray for my luck. Pls.

nail-foot: misery of my life :(

It's Time to Change

Yeah, I'm changing. I'll move on to a new leaf. 

Starting from today, I'll try to type my blog in English. Why? No!No!No! Qila, kite tak paham nanti :( Jadahnya, ingat aku punya English berhabuk sangat ke, sampai korang tak paham? -.-'. No. Only for a few days. For the sake of my beloved Malaysian University English Test.
 

MUET
 

I'm so stressed out, and stun while reading others' blog, which are written in English. Where the **** on Earth they learn, till their English are superWOW ya know?!! I'm superduper JEALOUS with them. Demm!

At UiTM, most of the lawyers-wannabe are very good & excel in English, for both speaking & writing. What can I conclude here, most of them, come from the wealthy family, so they can easily get a best education, English class for eg. Plus, most of the hebat one live in KL yah naww~ So, the school will be more focus on the English subject, sesuai lah dengan lokasi diorang yang kat KL kan? (my own speculation). Besides, they come from the A-list schools, like SBP, SBPI, M***, private school maybe, and used to stay at the oversea once, twice, or thrice.  Okay. I know. I did many sentence-mistakes here just now -.-'' 
Please let me know okay :(

For sure, I really really jealous, envy  (jeles yang baik ye ^_^) with Sakinah, d'17 y/o lil girl, my classmate in or maybe at  (blurrr) UiTM. Her blog is fully in English (tolak 2 entri Malay tu eh), untill I don't get what she's tryna say. Sooo Power Rangers meh o.O. Plus,  Hanis Zalikha's brothers & sister are good in English.
Shame on me !!!

Here are several peeps that I feel that, they're very umphhh in English :)

Classmates- Sakinah of cos :), Adila, Rizqan, Aisya, Aqmar, Nina, Zaza etc etc etc

Zaki, Ajierah, L, Veronica, Nina, Hanis

 & these guys, from their FB's page & blogs, I know they're very hebat too (gotcha! stalk :])

M******, A****** N., N*** A.

The rest, doesn't mean you are not good in English, no. You're even good than me. But the peeps that I mentioned above could make your jaws fall on the floor when they start open their mouth. Even, only to eat. (ayat aku cam cb kan?)

HAHAHA *LYAO -.-!

Okay. I got nothing to say anymore. Now, you can judge how bad my writing rite? How I'm supposed to do? The MUET is very very near, around the corner, to 'attack' me, this Saturday. Duhh -.-''

PRAY FOR ME MAN!

& the rest of MUET candidates :)

Thanks for lending your eyes to read my sucks-such-an-eyesore-English writing =.=

Tata for now, see ya! ;)

nail-foot: O Lord, seriously I'm f***king, freaking, deadly, badly nervous rite now, while I still doing nothing for the preparation T_T. I need a guidance. Pls.

Caring

CARE FOR ME

Terima kasih ya!

But, caring caring jugak. Tapi tak perlulah sampai aku rasa terkongkong. Bagilah ruang untuk aku bernafas dan bertindak seperti remaja lain. Normal.

*sigh -,-'

Sesiapa yang berniat nak keluar dengan aku, make sure dapat jawab soalan2 maut ini dengan YAKIN yer :

- kita sebenarnya nak pergi mana? dan mana lagi? lagi? lagi? itu je? betul nih?

- berapa orang yang akan keluar dengan kita? boys berapa, girls berapa?

- kenapa kita nak keluar? penting ke?

- boleh tak kita hang out tempat yang terdekat dengan rumah aku? senang nak amik.

- boleh jaga aku tak lau time apa apa terjadi? (duit tiba tiba habis, tak tahu nak makan apa, orang ngorat aku,usik usik melampau) ke nak biarkan aku terkapai2? 

Okay. aku ada memandai mandai tambah soalan. but basically, they're true. soalan lain kalau aku terdetik, aku roger korang

SEKIAN. *sigh again -,-''

kukukaki: sigh again & again

Gila Khinzir ;)

Result dah keluar.

HAMPA :'(

macam macam kata kata semangat diterima dari kawan kawan (parents tak kasi kata kata semangat pun, sebab tak gitau parents lagi, takut -.-')

dan dalam banyak banyak kata kata semangat yang aku dapat,

yang ini paling cannot go, buat aku ketawa;

"SILA USAHA GILA BABI NEXT SEM"

bunyi macam, adakah aku kena jadi babi yang gila ketika study supaya aku dapat skor next sem? kena pergi Zoo lah camni, nak tengok camne rupanya babi yang gila. HAHA

anyway, this is the best motivate sentence yang menjentik hormon ketawaku dan it sounds sangat comel :)

&& siap diiringi pom pom lagi katanya;

-yakin boleh! go go go Qila-

-it's okay, it's alright, come on Qila fight fight fight !!-

-aduh duh, aduh duh, aduh duh ahhh-

you make me :)

terima kasih kawan

  

kukukaki: kawan kawan, ayuh usaha sampai babi terlopong dan jadi gila tengok kita study ;)

JANJI MELAYU ;(

Manusia di Malaysia esp memang suka berjanji Melayu kan? ME?! Melayu? HELL NO!!! 

Aku kacuk mari keyh!! HAHAHA

Berbalik pada Janji Melayu, JM here means, konon kata si polan akan tett tett tett--> berjanji lah buat itu ini, tapi hanya mulut cakap melangit, sampai langit ke Tujuh nunnnn bidadari dengar janji si polan, tapi buat membumi (means tak buat lah)

Pom pang pom pang plan nak buat itu ini, last last tak buat jugak.

Apatah lagi kalau orang tu kata "okay, aku janji" 

Heyy! Go to h*** lah with those words that I bet you don't even know the meaning it is pun kan? -,-!

It's better to say InsyaAllah (jika diizinkan Allah) coz it's more safer right?

Kalau kita tak dapat tunaikan pun, kita dah ada hujah sendiri kalau orang nak hentam kita

"Did I say 'janji' before? You ada rakam ke I sebut that word? Tak kan? Dah Tuhan tak izinkan so I nak buat camne? Tuhan dah tak izinkan, I tak buat mungkin sebab ada hikmahnya. Reda lah ye :)" 

*buat muka suci tau depan dia*

Takkan orang itu nak object kuasa Tuhan kan? Nak blame bagai. Ada beran ke? Kena sambar petir baru tahu. Haha

UNLESS...!

You are pretty sure you can do it, or make it.

eg. your mum ask you to basuh kasut sekolah or mandi (apehal contoh senang?), ni zaman kanak2 dulu lah :D otherwise you cannot watch Dragon Ball yang akan start lagi sejam (oh no!!). So kita berjanji bagai, buat deal hitam putih dengan mak sendiri, akan buat those things, Sun Goku (betul eh eja?) punya pasal :)

Zassss!! lari berciciran cari kasut sekolah kat rak luar, terus pecut ke bilik air. Mandi dengan kasut sekolah :) DONE! 

Then pukul 9.30 boleh tengok Dragon Ball dengan badan yang harum berbau Palmolive, di samping kasut yang basah dalam baldi di sisi, yang juga berbau Palmolive :))

see! itu takpe ye adik adik ;)

Sebab tu aku tak suka menanam tebu di tepi bibir sebab aku takde baja, mulut aku pun tak muat.

Aku tak pandai sebut janji, taip bole ;) 

Saya kurang gemar menyebut janji dan mendengar orang berjanji, esp Politicians -.-''

So, kawan kawan, tunaikanlah janji kalau dah cakap. Aku tanak korang kena jawab kat Akhirat nanti kalau kena soal, "mana janji kamu si polan? kenapa tak tunaikan wahai si polan".  

Kita sama sama nak masuk syurga enn?  AMIINN *beramai2 juga*

renung renungkan dan selamat beramal ;)

kukukaki: mari mengundi ADUN Galas dan Batu Sapi, tengok dorang boleh buat apa ;)

Pos Pertama :)

Today, as usual I woke sooooooooooooooooooooooo late. 

Yes, REALLY. tapi, tak perlulah di mention-kan di sini kannn ;) 

jatuh lah saham I, ya know~ haha. ni sebab aku tidur lewat malam tadi 

*sepatotnye guna pagi, coz tak tidur pon malam tadi -.-

pagi pagi lagi, sahabat aku mengadu, buah hati beliau sakit. kasihan beliau, tidak keruan. 

si dia masuk wad bagai. (tolong doakan sekali kesihatan buah hati beliau, kawan kawan) :)

aku pon risau, tapi nak buat lagu mana kann, suruh mamat ni terus2an berdoa & bersabar je lah.

before tidur, aku suruh dia kejut aku after dia habis kelas

sebab dia dah diberi mandat untuk jadi jam loceng aku :) 

korang ade ke jam loceng sehebat aku punya? sila jeles :)

before that, aku online, sembang pom pang pom pang ngn member, gosip2 buas lah & macam2 lah. 

see! pagi2 dah 'diserikan' dengan dosa -.- *istighfar sekejap

*adik2, plis don't try this at home ye! at school takpe, mak bapak takde ;)

sebaik off je laptop (act, ni notebook aku rasa, maaf kpd sesiapa yang pernah 'tertipu'), 

aku text Edy, konon aku rindu dia lah, tak tipu *semua, sila muntah

pastu, aku makan lah sikit2 kudapan yang ada kat dapur, tolong Umi sidai baju, tengok tv jap.

pukul 10.00 am lebih, aku pon tidur lah ibarat Sleeping Beauty (bayangkan seketika)

hodoh lah qila! ok.hentikan imaginasi anda.-.-

sedang lena dibuai mimpi, aku dapat panggilan hangit siotttttttttt!

why I'm saying so? because orang yang HOT call aku.

ZAKI from Russia :) (sila jeles lagi)

beliau ceritalah ke-gabraban beliau (gege betul), aku ingat apelah tadi, rupa2nya nak tahu apa lah kes hot stot (story) yang ak gege2kan dekat Facebook. hehehe :)

aku berjaya buat ramai CUAK, serious! bila buka FB, ramai hantar post kat wall tanya:

1. ape yang hot stot nye qila?

2. ape nye hot stot?

ada beza kan? hahahaha

terima kasih kalian, aku ingat semua tak sedar akan kehadiran aku kat dunia yang fana ini :)

btw, stot tu aku reka, nampak lagi padat dan pendek. haha

(sila catat word baru ni ye adik2)

sambung balik cite si Zaki ni, aku explain lah bla bla bla....-tamatlah perbualan antarabangsa itu-

sambung tidur balik. tidur betul2 tak lena.

mesej Edy plak masuk (butiran mesej tidak dapat dimasukkan kerana mengandungi unsur2 lu............ar biasa.

hehe :)

sambung tidur semula setelah berluar biasa dengan Edy.

tup tup, jam loceng aku pulak call, adoii..dah sampai seru ke? ;(

anyway, thanks bro coz menjalankan tugas dengan penuh dedikasi.

tapi, ak pedulik hape, TIDUR semula zZz -_-

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time nak solat Maghrib, aku rasa sakit sangat2 between rusuk aku. ya, yang centre tu. betul2 the end of the ribcage.

tak boleh berdiri betul.adoiii...azab seketika. postpone kejap solat Maghrib (amponkan saya Tuhan)

then.rutin berjalan seperti biasa

lewat malam, online (till now, saat ak type ni).

aku ber-ngobrol dengan Zaki. 

Zaki menceritakan masalah beliau. Ini lagi sorang, sangat sangat sangat kasihan.

masalah dia pon boleh tahan dahsyatnya (tidak dapat disertakan butiran masalahnya, demi menjaga hati sesetengah pihak ) eh, Zaki sorang je pon. hikhik :D

pom pang pom pang pom pang pom pang pom pang pom pang pom pang sampai belebam -,-

so, today I learnt something:

1. cinta kadang2 memang suka menduga kita

2. cinta kadang2 memang sakit, buat kita (eh, kita pula *_*), buat seseorang tak keruan sampai meroyan mengalahkan ibu baru lepas bersalin -.-

sapa sokong, sila tepuk meja masing2 ala parlimen

dan macam2 lah saya belajar tadi, tapi lupa pula. hehehe :)

so, begitulah kisah si gadis tinggi lampai (sila amin beramai2) pada malam till pagi tadi.

mudah2an, mereka yang ditimpa masalah hari ini, dapat jumpa hikmah di sebalik masalah mereka, seperti kata pepatah orang putih :

"everything's happened for a reason"

moga2, korang dapat teruskan hidup seperti biasa ye, jam loceng & Zaki

jangan fikir sangat masalah itu, nanti korang terbeban, aku pulak yang risau.

*uishhh.. caringnye saye *_*

aku sayang korang, tapi korang jangan tak sayang diri sendiri, terbuai dengan masalah korang

BE STRONG BEYBEH! :)

with that, I end up my discussion. thank you for listening (jenguk-ing) 

*eh, ni ayat aku time MUET speaking test tau -,-

btw, Zaki ajar something kat aku, punya lah lama aku sangap ngan maksud menda ni (Y).

tanya punya tanya, beliau cakap, (Y)=thumbs up!

bahasa Sykpe katanya.

banyak kali aku dapat menatang nih, tapi tak tahu maksud.

hihiiii.

see ! betapa banyak kali aku dapat thumbs up dari Zaki

tengs yaw bro! :D

kukukaki: lepas dapat makan ABC, memang jadi malas solat ea, kawan kawan? :p